Right now it seems like I have lost myself to emotions, stress, and disapproval of myself. Where is the old me that was so sweet, happy, and on fire for Christ? She is still in there, but buried under a huge pile of junk… However I’m still here, I am still God’s Child, and more over God Loves me as I am. No matter how many mistakes I make, or problems I have.
I have been trying to improve myself for a while now, and things keep getting messed up worse, and it is making me more stressed. I realized recently I am going about it all wrong! I have been trying yo do this task on my own, which has gotten me nowhere, and into this pile of junk. Even though I am getting a story published I do not think very highly of myself. Nor have I made any improvements towards the direction I want you go. Do you know where I am going wrong??? Heheh I do… The problem is Me. I keep trying to do things my way, the way I think things should be, and not listening to God as much as I should be. So I decided to shut up, and listen to God before I ruin my dreams, and push the people I love away on accident. God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. ~Psalms 46:1
As a result, God has been helping me re-discover who I am, In Him. He is deepening my roots, and taking me back to the basics of Who He is. And showing me how much He loves Me! He has been using https://www.josephprince.org/ & http://joycemeyer.org/ ministries to do so.
Through the summons, I have been reminded and taught. About the importance of prayer; how to trust God better; my emotions are a distraction; the devil is out to keep me as far away from God as he can; that no matter what we do, we are not clean or whole without Jesus; and lastly The power of Jesus’s Name!
The worry I have in me, is natural, but it causes me to doubt and question God. What he is doing for me, when it will happen, ect. That is crazy! Who is God? God is all powerful! He is the Alpha and Omega. In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.~ John 1:1 14And God said unto Moses, I AM THAT I AM: and he said, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, I AM hath sent me unto you. 15And God said moreover unto Moses, Thus shalt thou say unto the children of Israel, the LORD God of your fathers, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, hath sent me unto you: this is my name for ever, and this is my memorial unto all generations. ~Exodus 3:14-15 “Teacher, what is the most important commandment in the Law?” Jesus answered: Love the Lord your God with all your heart, soul, and mind. This is the first and most important commandment. The second most important commandment is like this one. And it is, “Love others as much as you love yourself.” ~Matthew 22:36-39
With the worry my emotions become uncontrollable which makes me feel ugly inside and out, and unworthy of His love, driving a wedge between me and My Father. But you know what, no matter how hard I try, I will never be perfect as a human, I will mess up, I will say the wrong thing at the wrong time, I am human… That is why we need Jesus. He is the medium between God and Us. Therefore we can be forgiven of our faults and made new. I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. ~Psalm 34:4
When we worry, we are not trusting God completely and thus are preventing Him from doing His work. And we tend to forget the power in the Name of Jesus! All things are possible through Christ who strengthens us. ~Philippians 4:13 Jesus taught us to pray to the Heavenly Father, In His Name. “And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son. 14 “If you ask anything in My name, I will do it. ~ John 14:13-14 http://www.goodpassage.com/articles/NameofJesus.html
If one takes time to lean about God and what Jesus is all about, by reading His book. The Bible. We thusly discover who we are, and who we can become. Which is wonderful! There will always be questions unanswered, and things left to understand. But this I call to mind, and therefore I have hope: The steadfast love of the Lord never ceases; His mercies never come to an end; they are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness. “The Lord is my portion,” says my soul, “therefore I will hope in Him.” Lamentations 3:21-26